ashley marie

“We press play, don’t press pause
Progress, march on
With the veil over our eyes
We turn our back on the cause
When kids are walking ‘round the hallway plagued by pain in their heart
A world so hateful some would rather die than be who they are
No law is gonna change us
We have to change us
Whatever God you believe in
We come from the same one
Strip away the fear
Underneath it’s all the same love
About time that we raised up
And I can’t change
Even if I tried
Even if I wanted to…”

I am who I am. Who God made me.

That’s where I’ll be.

Most nights I don’t know. Anymore. Oh oh oh. Oh oh oh. Oh. Oh.

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#Thingsimissaboutmychildhood is trending on Twitter. Confession—the thing I miss the most is my family. That’s why I keep the pictures. The memories in them never change. Even though everything is different now. People change. Relationships change. Situations change. I’ll always have the pictures. And the memories. And the happy moments. And my family. All held safe in my photo box. I love and miss you all- how we used to be. But only in those happy pictures.

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It was just a dream, just a moment ago

I was up so high, lookin’ down at the sky

Don’t let me fall

I was shooting for stars on a Saturday night

They say what goes up must come down

But don’t let me fall
Don’t let me fall, don’t let me fall

They say what goes up must come down

But don’t let me fall, don’t let me fall

Take me to that old familiar place
Take me to memories we won’t erase
Take me to all that we had
Good and the bad

I’ll never forget you
I’ll never let you go
I’ll never forget you
I’ll always remember, I hope you know

Sometimes I feel the fear of uncertainty stinging clear
And I cant help but ask myself how much I’ll let the fear take the wheel and steer
It’s driven me before, it seems to have a vague
Haunting mass appeal
Lately I’m beginning to find that I should be the one behind the wheel
Whatever tomorrow brings, I’ll be there
With open arms and open eyes yeah
Whatever tomorrow brings, I’ll be there, I’ll be there
So if I decide to waiver my chance to be one of the hive
Will I choose water over wine and hold my own and drive, oh oh
It’s driven me before, it seems to be the way
That everyone else get around
Lately, I’m beginning to find that when I drive myself, my light is found
Whatever tomorrow brings, I’ll be there
With open arms and open eyes yeah
Whatever tomorrow brings, I’ll be there, I’ll be there
Would you choose water over wine
Hold the wheel and drive
Whatever tomorrow brings, I’ll be there
With open arms and open eyes yeah
Whatever tomorrow brings, I’ll be there, I’ll be there

Step by step, heart to heart, left right left
We all fall down…

Step by step, heart to heart, left right left
We all fall down like toy soldiers
Bit by bit, torn apart, we never win
But the battle wages on for toy soldiers


I’m supposed to be the soldier who never blows his composure
Even though I hold the weight of the whole world on my shoulders
I ain’t never supposed to show it, my crew ain’t supposed to know it
Even if it means goin’ toe to toe with ________ it don’t matter
I’d never drag them in battles that I can handle unless I absolutely have to
I’m supposed to set an example
I need to be the leader, my crew looks for me to guide ‘em
If some shit ever does pop off, I’m supposed to be beside ‘em
That ____ shit I tried to squash it, it was too late to stop it
There’s a certain line you just don’t cross and he crossed it
I heard him use my name on a _____ and I just lost it
It was crazy, this shit went way beyond some Jay-z and Nas shit
And no matter, the battle was’t won, We lost it
I spent too much energy on it, honestly I’m exhausted
And I’m so caught in it I almost feel I’m the one who caused it
This ain’t what I’m in life for, it’s not why I got in it
That was never my object for someone to ___________
Why would you wanna destroy something you helped build
It wasn’t your intentions, your intentions were good?
Well I went through my whole life without ever mentionin’ shit
And that was just out of respect for not runnin’ my mouth
And talkin’ about something that I knew “nothing about”
Plus you told me stay out, this just wasn’t my beef
So I did, I just fell back, watched and gritted my teeth
While he’s all over down talkin’ a people who literally saved my life
Like fuck it i understand this is business
And this shit just isn’t none of my business
But still knowin’ this shit could pop off at any minute cause

Step by step, heart to heart, left right left
We all fall down like toy soldiers
Bit by bit, torn apart, we never win
But the battle wages on for toy soldiers

There used to be a time when you could just say a anything
And wouldn’t have to worry about one of your people dyin’
But now it’s elevated cause once you got your kid in it
The shit gets escalated, it ain’t just words no more is it?
It’s a different ball game, callin’ names and you ain’t just scrapping’
You actually tried to stop the _____ from happenin’
Me and ____ had sat with him, kicked it and had a chat with him
And asked him not to start 
Fuck it he smash me, mash me and let me have it
Meanwhile my attention is pullin’ in other directions
He has an erection for me and thinks that I’ll be his resurrection
Tries to blow the dust off his old mic and make a new record
But now he’s fucked the game up cause one of the ways I was raised up
Now he still has got a grudge against me for nothin’
Well fuck it, that motherfucker can get it too, fuck him then
But I’m so busy being pissed off I don’t stop to think
That i just inherited his past generations’ link of issues.
And he’s cant understand mine which in’t fine 
So I’m still A soldier that’s on the front line
That’s willing to die as soon as I’m given the orders
Never to be extorted, strictly to show support


But he still tryna have his people hurt and murdered

Doesn’t matter, no worth to him I can’t think of a perfecter way to word it
Then to just say that I love ya’ll too much to see the verdict
I’ll walk away from it all before I let it go any further
But don’t get it twisted, it’s not a plea that I’m coppin’
I must need to be the bigger man
If ya’ll can quit poppin’ off at the jaws, well then I can
Cause frankly I’m sick of talkin’
I’m not gonna let someone else’s coffin rest on my conscience cause

Step by step, heart to heart, left right left
We all fall down like toy soldiers
Bit by bit, torn apart, we never win
But the battle wages on for toy soldiers

On the first page of our story,
The future seemed so bright.
Then this thing turned out so evil.
I don’t know why I’m still surprised.
Even angels have their wicked schemes.
And you take that to new extremes.
But you’ll always be my hero.
Even though you’ve lost your mind.

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn.
But that’s alright because I like the way it hurts.
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry.
But that’s alright because I love the way you lie.
I love the way you lie.
Ohhh, I love the way you lie.

Now there’s gravel in our voices.
Glass is shattered from the fight.
And this tug of war, you’ll always win.
Even when I’m right.
‘Cause you feed me fables from your head.
With violent words and empty threats.
And it’s sick that all these battles
Are what keeps me satisfied…..

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn.
But that’s alright because I like the way it hurts.
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry.
But that’s alright because I love the way you lie.
I love the way you lie.
Ohhh, I love the way you lie.

So maybe I’m a masochist
I try to run but I don’t wanna ever leave
Til the walls are goin’ up
In smoke with all our memories…..

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn.
But that’s alright because I like the way it hurts.
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry.
But that’s alright because I love the way you lie…

The wound heals but it never does. That’s cause you’re at war with love. You’re at war with love, yeah. These battle scars, don’t look like they’re fading. Don’t look like they’re ever going away. They ain’t never gonna change. These battle….
Never let a wound ruin me. But I feel like ruin’s wooing me. Arrow holes that never close from cupid on a shooting spree. Feeling stupid cause I know it ain’t no you and me. But when you’re trying to beat the odds up. Been trying to keep your nods up and you know that you should know. And let it go but the fear of the unknown.Holding another love strong sends you back into the zone
With no Tom Hanks to bring you home. A lover not a fighter on the frontline with a poem. Trying to write yourself a rifle. Maybe sharpen up a song. To fight the tanks and drones of you being alone. I wish I never looked, I wish I never touched. I wish that I could stop loving you so much. Cause I’m the only one that’s trying to keep us together. When all of the signs say that I should forget it. I wish you weren’t the best, the best I ever had. I wish that the good outweighed the bad. Cause it’ll never be over, until you tell me it’s over.
These battle scars, don’t look like they’re fading. Don’t look like they’re ever going away.They ain’t never gonna change.These battle…(And just leave then) You shouldn’t have but you said it. It shouldn’t have happened but you let it. Now I’m down on the ground screaming medic. The only thing that comes is the post-traumatic stresses. Shields, body armors and vests. Don’t properly work, that’s why I’m in a locker full of hurt. The enemy within and all the fires from your friends. The best medicine is to probably just let you win.I wish I couldn’t feel, I wish I couldn’t love. I wish that I could stop cause it hurts so much. And I’m the only one that’s trying to keep us together. When all of the signs say that I should forget it I wish you weren’t the best, the best I ever had. I wish that the good outweighed the bad. Cause it’ll never be over, until you tell me it’s over.These battle scars, don’t look like they’re fading. Don’t look like they’re ever going away. They ain’t never gonna change
These battle….I wish I couldn’t feel, I wish I couldn’t love. I wish that I could stop cause it hurts so much. And I’m the only one that’s trying to keep us together. When all of the signs say that I should forget It. I wish you weren’t the best, the best I ever had
I wish that the good outweighed the bad. Cause it’ll never be over, until you tell me it’s over. Cause you’ve set me on fire. I’ve never felt so alive, yeah. Hoping wounds heal, but it never does.That’s because I’m at war with love. And I’m at the point of breaking. And it’s impossible to shake it. See, I hoped the wound heals, but it never does. That’s cause I’m at war with love. Hope it heals, but it never does. That’s cause i’m at war with love! These battle scars, don’t look like they’re fading…Don’t look like they’re ever going away. They ain’t never gonna change
These battle…